hmm. u think it would make me pissed with u? how to be pissed abt this kinda thing? its not a right of mine to be pissed with u abt it. but u are my friend and i care for u really alot more than you think that i do and its so hard sometimes when i try so hard to cheer u up and yet u keep feeling so down... i know u dont want me to try or to care abt u at all but can u see that i cant help it? its like i see you and i see what you can be and it really tears me up to hear u but yet i dont want you to ever hide ur true self from me. maybe its because i will never ever feel the way you do but i wish that maybe i could take some of the pain for u.it seems so pointless and yet i cant really say anything cos i am not you. if only i could live one day in your shoes maybe i would be able to help you better? i dont want you to sink so deeply that you will really do something stupid but i really am at my wits end. maybe im not the best person to help you but please...i cant just sit there and watch one of the people i care most abt in the world just slip away. i know the way that can help you... will you take it? He's standing there knocking... will you open the door?